Patience
I am not a fan of patience. In fact, I can say that until I started this focus, it was easily my least favorite virtue.
I didn’t have it and I didn’t want to gain it. I didn’t even want to say that I wanted to improve my patience because then I might be given (Gasp!) opportunities to practice patience.
Now, some people who know me might think that I’m being humble. They see me helping Justin with his sensory needs by bopping him with his stuffed animal for the whole hour at church. Yes, I’m good at that. I’m good at being patient when I understand how long I will need to be, or when I’m in control of the situation. That’s the easy part for me.
As I have been focusing on patience though, I realize that I struggle with being patient with things that are out of my control.
I don’t think I have always been a control freak. Maybe it grew from being a mother to 8 children who were very close together in age. It might have developed over the countless seizures and doctor visits with Justin. Or maybe I am just a lot more prideful than I want to admit.
Whatever the cause, I like to know the plan. If I understand the plan, I can not only follow the plan, but I can have back up plans for the 15 things that could go wrong.
This trait has served me well in countless situations over the past 25 years, but it has not taught me to be patient. I know this isn’t true for everyone, but for me, one of the hardest parts of being patient is giving up control. That’s really scary.
There are a lot of aspects to being patient. There’s patience with people. There’s patience with things like the printer that always stops working at the wrong times. There’s patience with ourselves. I have a lot of work to do there. And there’s patience with God.
I think I really need to spend some time getting a lot more ok with letting God prevail in my life. I need to stop expecting Him to get on my schedule and learn to trust His schedule.
I believe in God with all of my heart! I love my Father in Heaven and I know He loves me. So, I need to start trusting him more. I know that He knows what I need and what my family needs.
I know that He can help me give up control of the things I need to and trust His timing.
So, here we go. I’m taking the plunge… with faith, instead of fear. I am going to start asking God to help me and to give me opportunities to be patient so I can learn and do better.
Thank you so much to those of you who are joining me?
#heatherslovechallenge
I am not a fan of patience. In fact, I can say that until I started this focus, it was easily my least favorite virtue.
I didn’t have it and I didn’t want to gain it. I didn’t even want to say that I wanted to improve my patience because then I might be given (Gasp!) opportunities to practice patience.
Now, some people who know me might think that I’m being humble. They see me helping Justin with his sensory needs by bopping him with his stuffed animal for the whole hour at church. Yes, I’m good at that. I’m good at being patient when I understand how long I will need to be, or when I’m in control of the situation. That’s the easy part for me.
As I have been focusing on patience though, I realize that I struggle with being patient with things that are out of my control.
I don’t think I have always been a control freak. Maybe it grew from being a mother to 8 children who were very close together in age. It might have developed over the countless seizures and doctor visits with Justin. Or maybe I am just a lot more prideful than I want to admit.
Whatever the cause, I like to know the plan. If I understand the plan, I can not only follow the plan, but I can have back up plans for the 15 things that could go wrong.
This trait has served me well in countless situations over the past 25 years, but it has not taught me to be patient. I know this isn’t true for everyone, but for me, one of the hardest parts of being patient is giving up control. That’s really scary.
There are a lot of aspects to being patient. There’s patience with people. There’s patience with things like the printer that always stops working at the wrong times. There’s patience with ourselves. I have a lot of work to do there. And there’s patience with God.
I think I really need to spend some time getting a lot more ok with letting God prevail in my life. I need to stop expecting Him to get on my schedule and learn to trust His schedule.
I believe in God with all of my heart! I love my Father in Heaven and I know He loves me. So, I need to start trusting him more. I know that He knows what I need and what my family needs.
I know that He can help me give up control of the things I need to and trust His timing.
So, here we go. I’m taking the plunge… with faith, instead of fear. I am going to start asking God to help me and to give me opportunities to be patient so I can learn and do better.
Thank you so much to those of you who are joining me?
#heatherslovechallenge